| We were given this life to live, not exist under standards set by some bullshit rule book... |
[19 Oct 2004|03:25pm] |
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hmm...not much to say i dont think...let me check...eh, no. me and derek are doing great...im very happy with life at this point in time...for the most part anyway...there are still certain things that get me down from time to time...like my mother treating me like absolute crap, but hey, it happens. thats just the way these things work i guess...you can be perfectly happy in one aspect of your life, but then another aspect just sucks. but, id rather it be this way than be flipped around, because at least when im fighting with my mom, derek is there to make me feel better. he doesnt even have to do anything really...all he has to do is hug me, and i feel better, because i know that he cares, and i feel that he understands, and i dont even have to explain it to him...if me and derek were to break up, and me and my mom were getting along real well, she still couldnt help me feel better about derek, she couldnt take away the pain or make me feel better with a simple smile or hug ya know? im not really sure if that makes sense, but honestly, that is how i feel...i know i havent been with derek that long, but theres something different about him...i trust him...which i cant recall ever saying about a guy...and im comfortable around him, and i feel that i can be myself around him, without having to worry about whether or not he's gonna like the way im acting ya know? anywho..im babbling, and i should stop.
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| In the long run nothing matters, in the long run we're all dead. |
[15 Oct 2004|12:25pm] |
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long time no type. i just haven't really had much of anything to say, especially since no one comments on it. but hey, thought i'd be nice and let you guys in on the thrilling updates of my life...well, they really aren't so thrilling. the only change that has come about since the last post is that im now dating derek. and things are going great so far. he's really a great guy, and im very happy. i got the best idea for kristis christmas present the other day. i know its way early, but im gonna start on it soon. i wanna to put a lot of time into it, because she's the best friend a person could ask for. im gonna make her a scrapbook of all the things that have to do with me and her, and the times we've spent together. i know she's gonna love it, and im gonna love giving it to her...other than that, nothing new.
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| I seem to have taken an interest in this kid... |
[01 Oct 2004|12:00pm] |
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Tonight is the homecoming game...and we will win...we have an awesome team, and we are undefeated. so lets go panthers. way to go on that school spirit award that we won from that show high school champs. the class of 05 is the best, i love you all!
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| The more I listen the more I have to say |
[24 Sep 2004|03:43pm] |
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So its been awhile...havent really been in a posting kind of mood ya know? I have the constant annoyance of people bugging me about homecoming...its really starting to piss me off...all my friends have dates, so i dont wanna go unless i have a date...maybe thats pathetic, but last time i went to a dance and all my friends had dates, i had zero fun...parts of it could be fun...but we'd be sitting there at dinner, and everyone is a couple, and then theres me...or slow dancing...am i supposed to just stand there and watch all my buddies dance? sorry dont think so. and you think my friends would be understanding of the fact that i may not want to go...but apparently they arent.
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| Apparently he cant stand the thought that a girl isnt way into him... |
[09 Sep 2004|03:18pm] |
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Duh...what else...if you know...you win a prize... |
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First full day of senior year was today. wasnt too bad...kinda zoned out through most of it, as per usual... i remember justin saying he liked to eat food, i remember kristi snapping me out of my daze in h.s intern...and me saying i was the master of spaceland...and i remember lunch and talking to that kid about music...and some funny comments...but i dont remember any of the knowledge that was given to me today.
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| I was a fool to think he'd turn out to be different... |
[08 Sep 2004|01:20pm] |
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so...I got to the bottom of all this shit. this random person left me some messages, informing of some things she felt i should know. as far as i know, she doesnt even know me, yet she took the time to tell me these things, when she could have just let me figure it out on my own. and i really appreciate that. if i ever met this person, i would hug them, because she's kinda opened my eyes to what i couldnt see, to the lie i was believing. and i believe that she has prevented me from getting hurt yet again. and for that, i thank her. i dont know who she is, or how she got my s/n, but i dont really care. whoever you are...if you happen to read this, i just wanna say thank you to you. you could have said nothing, and let me figure it all out my own. but you didnt. and that makes you an awesome person, so thanks.
Her comments are as follows:
~Best thing you can do, is see it from the asses mouth. Read his web site if you've got it...
~just trust me when i say, there is a reason he has never had a gf for more then 2 weeks straight, he thinks lying to a girl is fun... he just doesn't get it. He probably never will. Its your choice, try to make him change or make him see he needs to be honest, or do yourself a favor, and like someone who's worth it.
~don't ever expect this guy to be anything more then "fun", cause that's all you will be to him. He will use you for a week or so... maybe two, then stop calling, stop wanting to hang out, eventually you will ask him if he's mad at you
~you should regret telling him honey... he's a player... i shouldn't tell you who i am, just some girl he played
so yeah...whoever she is, shes a great person. and to the annoymous person that commented, thanks...it does help to hear things from someone else...and i agree with you about the people think trying is the 1st step to failure. hey, i'd like to know your username so i could comment on your site.
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| Why do I try? it gets me nowhere...fuck it. im done. |
[07 Sep 2004|02:45pm] |
signed onto yahoo today, only to find out that i had recieved a very interestig message, from someone. i have no idea who she is, but she knows daryl.
"watch out for daryl. he's a compulsive liar. just girl to girl, watch your back around him.
hmm...i wonder, how this person got my s/n...and why they care about some random stranger enough to warn them about a guy.
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| No more breath inside. Essence left my heart tonight. |
[07 Sep 2004|11:56am] |
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Why the fuck did I do that? I should not have told him. See, I always tell a guy if I like him, cause if you dont, you'll never know what would have happened, or what could have been. Then, when it comes to Daryl, I was just about to tell him, until I read his site and he talked about some girl he was interested in...and I decided not to tell him because the last few times haven't turned out very well. so he bugs me to tell him, and I finally did...and...I wish I hadn't told him.
twotoneeyesgirl: i was gonna tell u something
tiggerdude03: whats that?
twotoneeyesgirl: well...i said i was...but now im not
tiggerdude03: why
twotoneeyesgirl: uh...just cause
tiggerdude03: no, you cant say, i was gona tell you, then not say it
twotoneeyesgirl: oh but i can
tiggerdude03: :-\
twotoneeyesgirl: theres no point to it anyway
tiggerdude03: then just tell me
twotoneeyesgirl: no
tiggerdude03: :'(
twotoneeyesgirl: oh please
twotoneeyesgirl: lol
twotoneeyesgirl: ur not gonna talk now?
tiggerdude03: sry
twotoneeyesgirl: lol
tiggerdude03: looking at fffb shite
twotoneeyesgirl: oh
twotoneeyesgirl: k
tiggerdude03: why just you tell me
twotoneeyesgirl: cause
twotoneeyesgirl: it would be stupid
tiggerdude03: nah
twotoneeyesgirl: yeah
tiggerdude03: not telling me is stupid
twotoneeyesgirl: fine u really wanna know?
tiggerdude03: ya
twotoneeyesgirl: what would you say if i told u i liked you?
tiggerdude03: why you got to put up your away message when you said that?
Auto response from twotoneeyesgirl: Off watching the grass grow.
tiggerdude03: shite in my life is so confusing right now, so im not sure what id say
tiggerdude03: your a great girl and id like to gte to kno you, but im not sure if i can handle anything right now
twotoneeyesgirl: sorry helping dad
twotoneeyesgirl: its not meant to be a big deal...i only told you cause i always tell people if i like em...
tiggerdude03: its kool
twotoneeyesgirl: uh huh
so yeah...I'm sitting here feeling like a big fucking idiot...and I'm wondering if I fucked up our friendship....
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| I'm not holding onto this. I'm not wasting words on you. |
[06 Sep 2004|01:07pm] |
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I'm thinking...the weekend was pretty damn fun. hung out with brit and kristi, which is always fun. saw without a paddle. funny movie, i liked it alot.
I'm also thinking that Daryl is mad that we didnt go to his bbq, which is dumb cause i told him we might not go.
I'm thinking...sometimes my friends really fucking piss me off. I invite kristi to go with us to Frankenmuth this weekend, and she said she would go if she didnt have to work, and i find out now that she fucking blew me off and plans to have a shindig on Saturday, and forgot that i was going away. nice huh?
I'm still thinking...and now i've moved onto to the fact that last night my mom...got that? my own fucking mother...called me by my best friends name. what the fuck is that?
I'm thinking...I miss rachel a lot...and im gonna give her a call when i get home and see if she wants to come over.
And last but not least, im thinking that i should tell daryl how i feel about him.
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| Who wants nothing when there is so much something out there... |
[03 Sep 2004|12:43pm] |
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Went to the football game last night...we won, so thats cool. we have a good team this year. daryl didnt make it up, but its all good. I got home around 9:50, and I hadnt ate all day, so I had just gotten my food, and someone fucking knocks on my door. it was aprils fucking boyfriend. and nothing like the word hi...just "wheres my girlfriend." and I'll tell ya something else...staying up on the phone til 2:45 am is not the best idea when you gotta get up early. me and daryl were on the phone for close to 2 1/2 hours...talking about shit...interesting conversation it was...started talking bout relationships, and he made a comment about mike...went like this:
Daryl: mike seems like...such a good guy..*note the sarcasm*
Me: ha...yeah
Daryl: yeah...he seems like a real asshole...
Me: he is
Daryl: yet you dated him twice
Me: yeah...i sure know how to pick em...i always pick assholes. i think they're nice guys, and then they turn out to be assholes.
Daryl: well...I'm a nice guy...
and that was that...
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| Bada boom bada bam ba bam! |
[02 Sep 2004|02:20pm] |
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i have nothing relavent to say...senior pictures are tomorrow...dreading that but oh well.
no one comments on this bitch of thing.
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| I can't wait for you to catch up with me, and I can't live in the past and drown myself in memories |
[01 Sep 2004|03:34pm] |
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So...im thinking...it would be pretty fucking cool to have a star named after me...i love laying on the grass and looking at the stars...i could look up and be like "look, theres katie"...haha...that would be great.
im also thinking, that i would love to have some cheddar and sour cream chip and orange soda...im quite hungry, to the point where my tummy is making a rumbling kinda noise. now i think i know how pooh feels when he wants honey.
and lastly im thinking...that i have an interest in daryl...
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| Its on like donkey kong bitch |
[31 Aug 2004|03:11pm] |
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so i bought my homecoming dress, and clothes for senior pics...also registered for school...not fun.
1st Hour: Personal Econ.
2nd Hour: H.S. Intern
3rd Hour: H.S. Intern
4th Hour: Comp. Operations
5th Hour: Cont. Writing
6th Hour: Films
hmm...easy schedule 1st semester
funny story...i stayed at kristis a few days ago, and the power went out, so we walked to the corner to see if it was out everywhere...and can you believe she tried to sell me as a hooker? it went like this:]
Kristi: you look like a hooker
Me: gee, thanks. that really means alot.
Kristi:Well, you do with your shorts and your little tank top
Me: once again, thanks so much
Kristi: *kinda yelling* hooker, right here, $3.00...hooker, hooker, $3.50...
hmmm...5 and Telegraph...not the best place to joke around about hookers.
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| Nothing can take away the time and the memories we had. |
[26 Aug 2004|05:09pm] |
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hmmm...dont really know why i post in here...no one comments on my pointless entries...
Me: Don't rub my dots.
Krispy: I can rub anything I want.
Me: Not on this bed.
*lots of laughter*
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| Don't acknowledge right, just dwell on wrong... |
[25 Aug 2004|02:36pm] |
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Woo-hoo! I am officially known as the woo-hooing buddy, because i always say that online. so congrats to me.
when I say let's keep in touch,
I hope you know I mean I wish that you'd grow up.
This is the first song for your mixtape.
It's short just like your temper,
but somewhat golden like the afternoons we used to spend before you got to cool...
I still miss him...things were going so good...him and his damn fear of committment...sometimes though...i still dont get it. some things i will never understand...
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| Live hard. Die fast. |
[24 Aug 2004|02:08pm] |
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Well...I find that i have nothing to report. im thinking... well actually, nothing at the moment. i am bored. you people should call me...if im not home...call the cell. 734-765-3435 thats the news people. later.
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| Woo-Hoo!!! |
[23 Aug 2004|02:42pm] |
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ok...rae fixed it for me! she rocks like Ted Nugent at a Detroit concert. so the updates will go on. fyi...if you wanna see a really good movie. watch SLC Punk. good ass movie!
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| bye bye until a later day |
[19 Aug 2004|01:52pm] |
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I will not update again until this thing looks the way i want it to. so until that day comes...no more posts!
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